Friday, September 21, 2018
Hello sister, I know it’s crazy to write here thinking you may read this, but somehow it gives me peace thinking you may be able to see it. I feel I owe you, “I’m sorry” at least a million times for all the ways I was a jerk to you over the years. The ways I made you feel a certain way. For not showing enough compassion. For not having enough empathy. But then I start to think you already know I never meant to be a jerk, and that was, well, just how I am! And you already know that I love you, and that I would have done anything for you even though I was always too busy acting like a big shot to prove it. Now that you’re gone, I have lost the chance to be able to do anything for you, to do anything with you, to see you, to hear you, to even look at you. I am forever for the rest of my life here on earth sorry for not using the chance I had when you were here to spend more time with you, for being a jerk to you those times, and for ever making you feel any certain way. I want you to know how much I miss you terribly already, how much I love you, how much my heartaches that you are gone. And then I start to think again.....you already knew that!
Until we meet again, not a day will go by I will not think of you.
Love,
Jeff (Your Baby Brother)
